i wanna be independent, mature, confident, and exuding the kind of beauty that comes naturally, from within. but it seems hard. and how do i do that without losing myself? without becoming selfish, aloof or superficial. of course, this is just a dream.

i'm going to malaysia this 6th to 10th of june! hahah just making an announcement for those who might still be blur...

chein ning's last day of work yesterday, one less person to crap with le.. =( but we had subway! hahaha walked all the way to holland village and all the way back.. longest walk and shortest lunch ever..shall miss her.. =)

tpjc does not open on a saturday even if it says it does! made me waste time going back to get my cert. and i spent the entire afternoon cross-stitching, being the slow poke tortoise i am.. dinner was at breeks, for shell's birthday, happy early birthday!!

hong finally got her letter of acceptance from ntu, but leen got nus rejection letter.. haiz.. pray hard all my friends get into where they aspire to be..

who can i share hostel with?

made a bet with chein ning that if i get good honours, meaning 1st and 2nd upper honours, she's gonna treat me lunch for a week. hahah and we're gonna meet in university k? dun worry so much le.. =) hong too.. the acceptance letter will come de..
work just got more stressed.. how is that possible? =(

i wanna meet many people, but i've got no strength..can they ever forgive me? i miss them alot though...

i dont know whether my life is what i want it to be, heading where i want it to go. i dont even really think i know where i want to be headed. all i know is i have to strive hard to get where i would want to be.i just hope at the end, i'm still the same old me in terms of personality, more mature, but still the same. i want my life to have more direction, but i'm too lazy to get it to be. waiting for uni to help me sort my thoughts again, to get my life back on track...but it's all up to me..

some people need a wake-up knock on the head, hopefully they dont get it only after losing something they treaure most.

i know a blog is a person's personal space, but sometimes, i wonder if people feel embarrassed writing stuff to praise themselves?

i've accepted NTU CBE, i dont think there is a wrong choice between NUS and NTU, it just depends on the mentality i enter the school with. i just hope that mentality is not the 'TPJC" attitude-lackadaisical. i want to be enthusiastic! cant let the last 4 years of my scholling life go down the drain, as did the past 2 years! i want to live meaningfully! =D

my weekends for the next two weeks will probably be used up..

feeling lethargic these few days, we're only temps, cant we have abit of fun? with spies lurking round every corner, people glancing in our direction every time they walk past, how to breathe? sianz.

was up for shopping today, but having to go ubi in the morning drags me down. guess i shall see ql and celebrate leen's birthday over the upcoming weekend le. then is there still time to meet evan and the 2b people? hmm, even if my maths isnt that good, common sense would have told me the answer-no. how? things should straighten themselves out..

but i have two driving lessons next weekend? i should cancel one,shouldnt i.. my driving test is so long away in the future!!!!!!18th oct! 1145am!

tea party at 930am tomorrow at the meritus mandarin hotel. Question: NTU or NUS?

swollen eye-bugger. tv's down-double bugger. haiz.. nus gave me common engineering, what if i cant get into chemical engineering in 2nd year? should i take ntu chemical engineering? dilemma dilemma.. if MOE doesnt increase my pay, i'm gonna quit on 11th june!

thank god tomorrow's sat!! this week passed so fast i'm so thankful... but, next week onwards i gotta go AF!! that means 830am on those horrible mornings!=( they better increase my pay after nancy goes, or i quit! haha and i'm working tomorrow! it's all for the money.. that meagre sum=p

my parents are making alot of noise about the family trip(though with 10+ colleagues possibly coming along...-_-) i'm not really excited about a family trip, but as my mom says, it'll probably be our last one together, so i should just oblige her. nanjing shanghai hangzhou and suzhou, in 7 days! cant we just linger in one place for a longer period?

haha the girls at work can be so funnily scheming.. i'll miss them if they quit..they are such a nice bunch to be with!
i love you dear girl, i always will, but i cant seem to reach you anymore. you are always so far away, guarded and behind a wall. i miss the girl who was more carefree, though the mature woman will also be a dear friend. you really dont have to burden yourself with so many things, i may not be able to share that burden, but i'll gladly be a listening ear.. cant you count on me?

slightly burnt myself today under the scorching sun, but well, i dont mind.. =) had an interesting game of beach soccer, where we won 5-0!!! haha of course, the two goals i kicked in were obviously pure luck, nothing to do with skill.at all. hahaha and we proceeded to katong for laksa and ktv. it's a nice gathering, should have more of this, but not too often. when it happens once in a while, people tend to treasure it more, and make an effort to enjoy themselves.
friends should walk through life together with you, hope the 2b guys will always remain friends many years down the road=)